So I think things happen for a reason. Last post I said I couldn't start the mock cycle until my period started. And my period was abnormally late. But before it could actually come, I got the strangest text from my IM. She wished me the best of luck and said sorry things didn't work out. Talk about confused. I emailed J asking what was going on, and she called me. Apparently the counselor sent a report completely jacked up. And I mean completely jacked up. She said I was on zoloft (I'm not) and that I have an eating disorder (wtf?) and possibly something else that I can't remember now. I mean, I thought the woman was asking some weird ass questions, but she seemed strange in general so I wasn't too concerned. Obviously I was wrong! So once I confirmed that nope, not on any meds and nope, definitely don't have any issues with eating, she said okay let me try to straighten things out. Unfortunately, the doctor at CFA saw my anxiety in the past as a "red flag" and didn't care that the counselor's report wasn't accurate. I was a no-go. And my IM wasn't willing to switch Dr's.
At this point, I thought it was it for me. But after a few weeks of kind of hanging in limbo, J set me up with a different counselor to get the psych screening done before trying to find me a new match. I talked with someone NOT off her rocker, I took an MMPI (another looney test), she passed me and that was out of the way. But I still needed to be matched. Let me tell you, I was never so nervous. Then an email came. There was an IM, not so far from me, who liked my profile. We set up a skype call, and had the longest talk. This woman, she has the biggest heart. And her struggles have been long and hard. But her support circle is huge and that's something I worried about with the previous IM. She didn't seem to have much support. SO who knows. I do hope someone is approved by her Dr (I found out I was the 3rd surro that didn't work out), but I think this is where my path was meant to go.
So after the skype call, we set up a meeting. Of course, with scheduling conflicts, it had to wait about a month. That put us into late April. She brought a friend, who I loved, and we all talked for about an hour. They couldn't stay longer but we could have chatted more otherwise. We talked about things from the pregnancy, to support, to delivery and beyond. I think we touched on everything.
One thing I love about this IM is her determination and drive. She's waited a long time for this and so delays aren't her thing now. When we tried to have me set up for a consult with her clinic, they wanted to make it for the end of May! After some push-back, IM got it bumped to early May. So the day came and I called the clinic. I was so nervous! But the Dr. I talked to sounded so down to earth. We did talk about my past anxiety, but he didn't seem very concerned. Especially since I've come so far with chilling out. We went through the tests I still needed (which was just a few more blood tests and then a saline sonohysterogram. Which is not as bad as the HSG test I had done with dye). He went through the meds I'd take and transfer. All in all, it went really well.
So oddly enough, we got the saline HYS scheduled for the same day the consult call was meant to take place. I had to drive down to the clinic, which is near DC but actually in Virginia, around lunch-time. The DC beltway. At lunchtime. Oy. I gave myself plenty of time though, and I actually got there 30 minutes early! Surprisingly, they took me back immediately. Brownie points! True to his word, the procedure was easy peasy and showed I have a picture perfect uterus (what a compliment!). Got back to work and finished the day out. The next week I got my blood work done. Now unfortunately D needs blood work too, but his work schedule is craaaaazy. So he's scheduled for this Friday, but now he may have to cancel because of a change in where he has to report to. So frustrating! He only needs ONE test done. But it is what it is.
Almost done this update, promise! So the other update? I have a lawyer! Yep. We've entered the contract phase. I was pretty well officially cleared by the clinic (I mean, barring D's blood test coming back wonky, which it shouldn't!) so IM's lawyer is currently drafting the contract. My lawyer will receive it and then slide it over to me. Then we'll set up a time to go over any changes we want, and do tweaks until both sides are ready to sign! Woah!
But I'm not saying anything else jinx-worthy. If it is meant to happen, it will happen. And that's it. But I am getting a wee bit excited about the reality! Nervous about the unknowns, and how things will be at work. Meh. Not worrying too much about work, they survive women getting pregnant and having babies. Anyway, I'm not happy with how the previous relationship dissolved, but I am SUPER happy with how things have turned out. Praying D's work schedule allows him 30 minutes this week to get the blood test done! And that there aren't crazy changes that need to be made to the contract. I'm flexible, so we'll see!
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